this afternoon, i don’t know how or why but, i started sucking on my thumb and this is kind of a problem because now i can’t stop and i am almost 20 years old and i have an essay to type for Ethics on why zooey deschanel’s character in 500 Days of Summer loved unjustly and i just took my thumb out of my mouth to type this but i want to put it back in. i am an adult, ok.
Time And Relative Dimensions In Sadness: An Open Letter to Companions
Gotta write a 2min speech about David Sedaris for Public Speaking, a 2 page paper about Biblical influences on the Mountain Goats music, and a 4 page paper about What Even Is Justice for my ethics class so I guess I’m headed to the library.
Just now, I found out my biblical lit professor likes the Mountain Goats and she is letting me write a short essay about The Life of the World to Come (!!!!) I am so happy and I love college and I hope I do a very good job for John. Happy Monday, everyone!
Saying that a man and a woman can’t be “just” friends is like assuming that a bisexual can’t have any friends at all because they might get a sudden urge to fuck them.
lesbians can be just friends with other girls. gay men can be just friends with other guys. bisexuals should probably work the same. therefore, my theory is that the only reason men and women can’t be “just friends” is because some straight men can’t see women as anything other than family or potential sex partners. if men could see all women as people this would probably change.
one thing that happens if i care about you and i spend enough time with you is i adopt some of your mannerisms and way of being and so when you’re gone or when you leave me you aren’t actually gone and that’s sort of hard to deal with but also kind of nice and comforting even if you’re really really gone.
i’m totally confused too. but you’re really lucky that you seem to be okay with this uncertainty because that bothered me for a really long time. i think it really only matters who you love? and that’s a trial/error thing, sort of? i don’t get it??
it bothered me a lot in middle school b/c i was like afraid i was gay and i would talk myself out of being attracted to girls which was dumb but yeah by now i just sorta figure that i’m attracted to whoever i’m attracted to i don’t see much purpose in trying to define it or like predict what kind of people i’m gonna like? like i can’t really see myself in a long-term relationship with a girl but i’m also 16 and have never had any kind of non-friendship relationship with anyone so?? i mean it took me a while to be comfortable with uncertainty i had to kind of train myself to just accept whatever weird stuff my brain does??
it took me a really long time for me to respond to this cause i’m supposed to be doing homework and i’m trying not to sound lame and this is just really important stuff so. yeah. you probably have some really awesome friends, because i know i didn’t get to be even semi-secure about this stuff until i came to college and met some awesome open-minded people who introduce me to beautiful things like vlogbrothers and stuff.
on a semi-unrelated note i really recommend coming to a women’s college because boys are dumb and who cares and you learn more here and classes are sort of smaller and i guess what i’m saying is you should come to my school and i will adopt you? is that weird? probably?
i don’t really talk about sex stuff with my irl friends at all but tumblr’s definitely made me more accepting of sex/gender stuff. i’m still not like completely 100% okay with not being able to put a label on my sexuality but none of them really seem to apply to me so i just eventually gave up on finding a label that worked, i guess? also i know i want to go to a small private college so i’ll probably look into some women’s colleges but i also like boys a lot sometimes idk i’m v conflicted on that one
i’m just banking on the hopes that eventually gender and sexuality isn’t even gonna matter and no one will care and people can just walk up to people and say “i like you” and even if they don’t like you back they don’t get offended or creeped out because it doesn’t matter at all really? so yeah i’m not even gonna bother labeling myself cause i don’t care and i’m not trying to date or hook up with people anyway cause that’s frightening and gross and no thank you.
as for the boy thing you should just come here anyway and we can walk to the coed university cause it’s only a couple miles away and we can watch the boys in the library except who really cares? college boys are dumb so you might as well wait until they’re fully developed and not dumb. idk. (college boys are actually sort of cool and intelligent and friendly sometimes but they’re still pretty dumb almost always?) just to be clear i’m not avoiding boys, i’m just not going out of my way to deal with them :-/